Disappointed,

There is a difference between being mad and being disappointed. Like how I'm disappointed, yet I'm not mad. Second time this happened, though. I thought I was being selfish for thinkin' this, but everyone has convinced me that I have every right to feel like this. It's not like I'm asking for you to devote all your time to me, but it WOULD make me feel better if you showed you cared, just a tiny bit. I'm not asking for a lot, am I? Thank god I have Harrison and Kenny. They help me through a lot. Bleh,

"Never make someone your priority, if they just make you an option."


Another thing that's been eating my brain: I guess now that you don't need me anymore, you just don't really talk anymore to me, huh. Just shows your true colors. I knew this was going to happen eventually. Everyone knows it's true too, that you only think about yourself. Self-centered. Supposed to be the tightest, too.


I HATE HATE HATE when people bail/flake. Sorry, but that's my biggest pet peeve. If you say you're going to do it, folllow through and keep your word. Be accountable for your actions. I don't give a fuck if you're my closest friend or just an acquaintance, be dependable.

Practice was cancelled today since ROP has a performance in the gym. Three games and two practices left. Friday versus Grove, away. Monday, versus Bolsa at Bolsa. Wednesday, Senior Night versus Santiago.

A few days ago, my mom ransacked my room and found my traffic school papers. She didn't know I got my ticket and paid for all of it and all that. So she took my papers and just got them signed for me since she had hook-ups so I don't even have to go. Hehehe, thank god. Love her sometimes.

Today, during lunch, I was talking to the guys and Liane about prom! I'm soooo excited! Just four more months. I know it's gonna go by helllllla fast. But already thinkin' of dates, dresses, dinner, groups, and pictures. Heheheh. I'm extra excited though, maybe because Los freakin' failed this year and didn't have formal. FML. But Bolsa's formal this year maybe? Perhaps.


jvo


P.S. A lot more people read my blogs than I thought....